The Rising Sun

I have been thinking a lot about what I am getting out of this class. Truthfully, at times, it is a lot to take in. I have been thinking about what we are doing as a class, what we are "learning" in relation to what we are being fed, the way Jesus impacted culture and why He was so successful. This is what I have come up with (and I apologize for half my I's being uppercase and half being lower case...dont judge me).

I feel we have been trying to impact changed by conforming to the same style system that Jesus used. He was Himself and He stood for what He believed in no matter the costs. This style most of the time, if not all the time, went against the norm of society and really caused conflict creating situations where choices had to be made. This is a very important thought to consider so take a second to ponder that.

(this represents the time you should be taking to ponder that)

Now, back to what we are doing as a class. I understand what we are trying to accomplish with our project.  We are trying to raise our awareness of how other people, especially those in charge of facilitating learning, measure the way we learn. I think it is also a good way for those in charge to reevaluate the learning process themselves. At the same time, we are also being ourselves and taking the yoke of learning upon ourselves. It is up to us to learn and accommodate what we are taught within a class into our lives and the way we live, especially in the case of our faith.

Now, the big point to consider, the reason i gave you time to think earlier, is to ask why Jesus was so successful. This goes back to what we were taught in class at the beginning of the semester. What is truth? I came to the conclusion that, while it is difficult to single out and define truth, it is so evident because truth is truth! Truth is something we cannot avoid and it is something that demands an answer when we hear it; when we see it. I think that is the very reason why Jesus was so successful and why the things he taught 2000+ years ago are still around today. Jesus broke away from the norms of society and taught truth. Spoke truth. Lived truth. He stood on the foundation of THE truth. Therefore, if we take a stand upon that same ultimate truth, we will not change the society and impact the world? Like a thread in a tapestry, we may not see our purpose in the pattern of the grand design, but every life matters as well as every choice that every life makes. We must be the change we want to see in the world, and if that change requires us to stand upon the foundation of truth, the world must respond to that truth. So what life are you going to live? Im done thoughting for now...

The Breaking Point

Ok, so, i have been frustrated, especially recently, with the system of learning outside of this class. Yes, i have already pointed this out in other blogs, but by thinking about the system over and over again and what it entails, it has led me to another system in which we hopelessly get caught up in and it is driving me crazy.

I will cut out the middle man (which is me telling you how I arrived to this system via another system) and just say I am soo TIRED of making myself sooo busy. In the last couple of weeks, i have reflected upon what we have been learning and how i have grown the most, and the conclusion was by just sitting down and thinking through things have i grown the most. However, it seems that instead of setting aside time to think, I am getting lost in the never ending amount tasks i keep lining up before myself. I tell myself, "Ok, i have a 400 page book to read and a paper to write on it, i will think after I finish it", or even in the midst of thinking i feel guilty because i could be spending my time trying to catch up for other classes or working on somehing more important.

What is even worse than being caught in this cycle is I apply it even to my spiritual life. I feel like i cant even take the time to study God's Word and dwell upon Him without finding worry in the midst of all that. God is the most important thing that has ever happened to me, and i feel like i am walking all over that precious gift. Who am I to tell God that i cannot set aside time for Him in the time He has given me?

I mean, even if I am the only lousy person who does this in the spiritual life, we are all guilty of doing it in general, no? Some people may have more of a grasp on it than others, but my question is why? Im tired of it...im tired of this. I dont want to let my professors down...i dont want to let my friends down and this is where everything all comes crashing together. The system of grades...worried about the marks...worried about precious time. But, i think it is time to refocus my attention and the time God has given me and see how different things will be.